Perkins drama
I swear to god this morning the phone would not stop ringing. Between the house and my cell I was ready to start smashing anything electronic. Then someone was knocking on the door. I don’t answer it, and go back to sleep. Later after I listen to my voicemail I find out it was my grandmother. Oh well. I really didn’t care who it happened to be, all I knew is that I was exhausted and just wanted to sleep. I kept resetting my alarm until Antonio came home. Then I realized I better get up and go to school. School was draining today. Sometimes Dr. Matchinsky is so scatter-brained. We had our little Jeopardy style review, which always seems to amaze me for the simple fact that a lot of the “hard” questions are easy, yet the ones that are supposed to be easy end up being a pain in the ass. I decided I am staying in tonight, maybe I can try to get some sleep, and read a bit. Tomorrow I would like to get something accomplished, so getting to bed at a reasonable hour seems highly desirable to me right now.
All I really want right now is to just be alone. I don’t want to be around people in general. This weekend I don’t even know if I will go out, unless Becky has time to study, which I really need to do. But considering I can never seem to get any of my homework done while I am Perkins, I am just going to do it at home. I have a test next week in Psychology, and I really prefer to do well on it, and not have to cram the night before. Perkins is a place of drama, and he-said-she-said bullshit. Quite frankly I am sick of it. I am tired of seeing the game playing that goes on between everyone. No one has anything intelligent to say anymore, its always just about the drama. I used to be able to have good conversations there, discussing religion, politics, theories, and ideas. Now all I ever hear is “Guess what ___ did”, or some elaborate story about why ___is wrong, and they think they are in the right to be mad. All anyone cares about is themselves. I don’t care about the drama, I am not in high school anymore and would much prefer the company of ADULTS that act their own fucking age rather than like a bunch of greedy, selfish assholes that are willing to stab anyone in the back. I am tired of the favors constantly being asked, even though no friendship is really currently present. And yes, I am talking about Kelly. But I am not ONLY talking about her. I am annoyed with most of the staff equally. I despise the fake smiles, convenient friendships, and out right lies produced, and aided by everyone. I don’t care how so-and-so does their job anymore. If everyone would just shut the fuck up, leave their personal problems at the door, and do their job the way that they are supposed to 90% of what goes on in/at Perkins would stop. Even when there is no drama people like to create it. It does not matter who flirted with who, who is prettier, funnier, or more talented. I really think dating someone you met at work, and did not know beforehand is generally not a good idea. It is only going to cause problems. There are many times I just want to rip into people there, but I stop myself. This is also part of the reason I do not want to even be there some nights. I am at the end of my rope with this shit. Unless what you know is indeed FACT and not gossip, there is no need to spread it around. What does it really matter anyway. All anyone is doing by spreading gossip is making themselves feel like they are a better person because the gossip that day/minute its not something bad about them. If I had to go into a work environment like that, day after day I would probably start killing people. It is time for everyone there to grow up. I can think of better uses of my time then to sit at Perkins for 6 hours to hear about the dramatics.
Basically what this all boils down to I guess, is that I will not be including myself in the bullshit any longer. If there is really a serious issue at hand, I will lend my advice, or thoughts. But if you are only going to bitch about something trivial, go elsewhere. I would like to, even just for one day, be able to sit down, read my book, and not be interrupted with drama, lies, and gossip. Gossip not being limited to events at Perkins either. I will no longer be attempting to do my homework at Perkins unless I am with a fellow student, or for some reason cannot actually do it at home. Or maybe I will go somewhere else to do it.
I am not directing these statement at any one in particular (well, except for where I mention Kelly), I just think that as a whole these statements, and opinions can very well apply to everyone in some way. I am not claiming that I have never engaged in any of the bullshit, I do not claim to be a gossip free person. BUT, my life does not revolve around it, and it is not the highlight of my day. Gossip can be ok sometimes. But only when it, in fact, is only SOMETIMES. Not more often than not, consuming an entire evening, and all conversation.
One of the reasons I suggested reading books together between anyone that is really interested is to get away from all of this. To actually talk about something else for a change. That was not my motivating factor in starting this though. I love to read, and am always on the search for more knowledge. I thought it could be something, that as a group, we could enjoy together. I guess until the dramatics are put aside it will not really ever happen.
All I really want right now is to just be alone. I don’t want to be around people in general. This weekend I don’t even know if I will go out, unless Becky has time to study, which I really need to do. But considering I can never seem to get any of my homework done while I am Perkins, I am just going to do it at home. I have a test next week in Psychology, and I really prefer to do well on it, and not have to cram the night before. Perkins is a place of drama, and he-said-she-said bullshit. Quite frankly I am sick of it. I am tired of seeing the game playing that goes on between everyone. No one has anything intelligent to say anymore, its always just about the drama. I used to be able to have good conversations there, discussing religion, politics, theories, and ideas. Now all I ever hear is “Guess what ___ did”, or some elaborate story about why ___is wrong, and they think they are in the right to be mad. All anyone cares about is themselves. I don’t care about the drama, I am not in high school anymore and would much prefer the company of ADULTS that act their own fucking age rather than like a bunch of greedy, selfish assholes that are willing to stab anyone in the back. I am tired of the favors constantly being asked, even though no friendship is really currently present. And yes, I am talking about Kelly. But I am not ONLY talking about her. I am annoyed with most of the staff equally. I despise the fake smiles, convenient friendships, and out right lies produced, and aided by everyone. I don’t care how so-and-so does their job anymore. If everyone would just shut the fuck up, leave their personal problems at the door, and do their job the way that they are supposed to 90% of what goes on in/at Perkins would stop. Even when there is no drama people like to create it. It does not matter who flirted with who, who is prettier, funnier, or more talented. I really think dating someone you met at work, and did not know beforehand is generally not a good idea. It is only going to cause problems. There are many times I just want to rip into people there, but I stop myself. This is also part of the reason I do not want to even be there some nights. I am at the end of my rope with this shit. Unless what you know is indeed FACT and not gossip, there is no need to spread it around. What does it really matter anyway. All anyone is doing by spreading gossip is making themselves feel like they are a better person because the gossip that day/minute its not something bad about them. If I had to go into a work environment like that, day after day I would probably start killing people. It is time for everyone there to grow up. I can think of better uses of my time then to sit at Perkins for 6 hours to hear about the dramatics.
Basically what this all boils down to I guess, is that I will not be including myself in the bullshit any longer. If there is really a serious issue at hand, I will lend my advice, or thoughts. But if you are only going to bitch about something trivial, go elsewhere. I would like to, even just for one day, be able to sit down, read my book, and not be interrupted with drama, lies, and gossip. Gossip not being limited to events at Perkins either. I will no longer be attempting to do my homework at Perkins unless I am with a fellow student, or for some reason cannot actually do it at home. Or maybe I will go somewhere else to do it.
I am not directing these statement at any one in particular (well, except for where I mention Kelly), I just think that as a whole these statements, and opinions can very well apply to everyone in some way. I am not claiming that I have never engaged in any of the bullshit, I do not claim to be a gossip free person. BUT, my life does not revolve around it, and it is not the highlight of my day. Gossip can be ok sometimes. But only when it, in fact, is only SOMETIMES. Not more often than not, consuming an entire evening, and all conversation.
One of the reasons I suggested reading books together between anyone that is really interested is to get away from all of this. To actually talk about something else for a change. That was not my motivating factor in starting this though. I love to read, and am always on the search for more knowledge. I thought it could be something, that as a group, we could enjoy together. I guess until the dramatics are put aside it will not really ever happen.
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