Lost the ability to cry?

Crying seems like a good thing to do right now. I want to cry so badly for so many reasons. But I never seem to be able to when I am finally alone.

I start my first day of college tomorrow. How strange. I waited a little too long on this college deal I am thinking. I should have started sooner. Maybe then it would be easier. I am only taking one class though, since I did not even have time to put financial aid paperwork through. So I paid in cash. No big deal. It has been too long since I have been in a classroom to take more than I am. I thought everyone would be proud of me for this. But they don't seem to care. I know I should have done it a couple years ago, but better late then never right?